Monday, February 7, 2011

Nebulation

Nebula RCW49


I dreamed a dream that wasn't a dream...
in the manner I usually do...

The bright white light arranged itself into a grid that reached around the planet and then spread out into space...

Rather than pulsing and flying around as you would expect white light to do, it conveniently froze into a series of steps or platforms...

Or maybe it was time that cooperated by refusing to move...

Not being one to question a good thing when it presents itself I took the opportunity to climb the 'stairs' which became ever more narrow the further out (up? away?) I went...

(Isn't that always the way when you choose a point in time path through a multi-universe dreamview?)

I only had to jump a few times along the way and when I reached the top, the void, the pinnacle of this decision...

I jumped into the spinning place and whirled the light from the tips of my fingers...

Alive and moving again... Swirling and purple and white...

Roiling with what can only be described as the perfect match of purpose and desire...

I think I'll stay...

You come too...

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Socialization for the non-social

I haven't the faintest clue how to even DO it...

Work is easy... Socializing with work people around work things is easy...

The rest of it?

Totally at a loss...

Don't care most of the time...

Except when I do...

Monday, January 24, 2011

I've never wanted to be famous...

I've never wanted all those people LOOKING at me...

There's a certain freedom in anonymity...

That doesn't really stop me from wanting to do something AMAZING...

I'm just not sure I'd like the fallout if I did...

Saturday, January 15, 2011

If I'm going to forget to breathe...


More Duckie - 1, originally uploaded by karenturner.

It might as well be because I'm doing something creative...

Today could not have come too soon!

I'm not working...

My honey is home...

I want to capture these moments in little bubbles and keep them handy for then next time I just want to say 'screw it!!'

Friday, January 14, 2011

So I failed in my bid to just breathe today...

I've reached a limit of sorts over here and now I have slipped from despair to anger...

I've jumped across a line and am in the run-away place...

I just don't know what to do with it...

I know I won't stay here... But I don't know what else to do...

I'm done... done done done...

Only I know I'm not... I know that my only choice is to replace 'this' with 'that'...

And we know how well that works...

Frick!

Today is a good day to take a deep breath...

Day 55 - TGIF

Today is no different than yesterday from a stopping and breathing perspective...

I'm just tired of the stress and the angst and the drama...

So today is for relaxing, deep breaths, cleansing, centering...

I don't feel very good at this whole life thing right now...

But I can learn...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I am clearly doing this wrong...

In a world of zeros and ones...

It doesn't pay to 'do the right thing'...

It only pays to do the stuff that nets you a 1...

Regardless of who you screw over...