When you take a minute...

To really enjoy what you have...

And not just enjoy it...

But to hold still...

Let it sink into your bones...

Breathe it into your soul...

Enjoy...

Touch...

Feel...

Love...

You realize how lucky you really are...

There's a reason for everything...

And it's usually a simple one...

If I turn the white hot light of hindsight onto the present and let it burn away all the pretty excuses...

I am left with the obvious...

If you wanted to, you would...

You haven't... so...

I want my MOM!!!

I really do...

This year will be the first time in 30 years that I don't go see my mommy!! 

Ok, I think I missed one...  I don't remember why... But my mom was so sad I vowed never to do it again... Ever...

I'm not sure how to do this...

I'm really not...

SAD

 
I really wish the rain would stop...  I need some sunshine...

Open Hands...

 

Wind blowing through sand...

Clearing the dust and debris of too many things gone not-quite-right...

Leaving behind a tiny pink point of light...

And a wish to love you for who you are...

For what this is...

Nothing more...

For always...


photo: Googled, from here

Just in case I forget...

Soft...

Light...

Balance...

Relax...

Oh I want you I want you I want you

on a chair with a dead magazine...

I'm working on a choreographed routine for our summer showcase (yes, I said showcase, as in I'm performing (who IS this person???)), and we decided to do a combination Viennese/Argentine Vals. I'm just learning Vals and no one else at my studio even dances it, so that makes it even COOLER to do as a show piece.  Then it came time to decide on a song... MY song... One I get to choose...

But what song?  It couldn't be something typical...  Go original or go home I say...  It couldn't be something light and happy and cotton candy pink (never mind about the dress, I'm trying to make a statement here).  It needed to be something dark, something complicated, something real.

My first choice was Hallelujah (of course).  Right timing and everything... But the Jeff Buckley version was too irregularly timed to waltz to... So we tried Alexandra Burke... Right timing but...  A show tune?  I can't dance to a show tune...  A big band happy production of a song that's meant to leave you drained and on your knees...

So I went back to my BFF, the internet...  And came up with this one...  I think it's perfect...  Even though no one watching will know what I'm trying to say...

I will...